This is my 60th post since 151215640 months ago I started this blog. I was supposed to perform today but due to the crazy condition of my body, I didn't. Which sucks particularly because I really wanna get out from my crazy little pig sty.

Ah, 'nuff said. Blogger beta actually helps to check your spelling. Reminds me of Microsoft Word and I don't like it.

I went HOGC yesterday with my friends. The night before I was praying for them. Perhaps they are so dear to me that I really wanted them to be saved. Ahhhh, so yesterday we went HOGC and I was excited and nervous even though I tried to keep my cool. I was bursting with emotions. Then what struck me most was what V told me, you must have faith. Faith, as small as a mustard seed. I was afraid but a small voice told me, " Just leave it to Me because I will handle everything. " Even though I knew it was from Him, I couldn't relax, I didn't have enough trust. This was what I have learned yesterday that I have to trust Him no matter what because He is in control.

I thought I did, but in fact I didn't. As some of them started to share the gospel to each one of them I started to jump. I wanted to scream and shout because it was it, I mean, will God answer my prayer? As people asked me to relax, I couldn't even though I tried. Then later I found out that nobody prayed the prayer and so I was crushed. Crushed spiritually.

Then halfway through it all, I realised that all the while He was asking me to wait patiently as He started to work in their lives. We just needed time and His concept of time and mine is totally different. While I dreamed of instant salvation, He wanted to work slowly. Then it was clear that He was telling me, wait and see.

I decided to cheer up and then I found out W was that one small step in receiving Christ. My spirit soared. I was more than just pure elated. Then I knew He could do anything and everything, all I had to have was patience.

Can you say my prayer was not answered? No, but it'll soon be and it doesn't matter if it's 3 years later.